I can't believe next week will make a year since I dragged to make it and do this college work...my interest was not there
At each try to go forward and do some work at my own time because most of my courses was online I broke down into tears.
I couldn't explain in words what that world was like for me.. I just was not myself.. the determination and force attitude I had towards college and getting a degree was not there.
College is a lot of work and needs a lot of time just as my life in addition to Cerebral Palsy..i am in it to win..
Lets lay out my reality day to day.
I am unable to get out of bed on my own.. that requires me waking someone up to get me out of bed then other one to assist with transfers from up stairs to down stairs. At times I hear the comments I am up now I wish I can go back to get some more sleep.. I stare with my eyes open!
My aid arrives.. finish prepare to be ready to go to class or set myself up to do course work and I do but in my own world I really focus.
The alarm that at night my parents are my caregivers my dad goes to work in the morning the lights off
it means my day is over that means that 6-7 page paper, other work and studying must continue until other day
is that college life?
What about my physical therapy
Dear me
Sometimes I am completely broken by a part of my life that is apart of me forever
Since doctors diagnosed me with it at 9 months old
Why i am broken at times??
Sorry
This life is beautiful
It’s a blessing and a gift that I can share with many around me
Its not easy has amazing
Physical I grow
I can’t get out of bed on my own
It’s not easy to dress myself
And many more
My disability is amazing
I can empower others
Teach others
And so much more
Would I be doing what I do know if these legs was able to move at 100
The other day I walked stairs with the support of my dad I haven’t done that in ten years
Dear me
I am going back to college to pursue a degree in human services
To help adults and families
As well as youth and children with disabilities
I promise to
Remember why and keep going
And still find time to focus on me
My disability shouldn’t have to change so I can accomplish
So I can live the life I dream
To even date
Have kids
It should start now 😍😍😍👏👏👏
Dear me it’s a lot I never share but I am some hope for others and today I wanted to share with others
Never give up disability is beautiful
Recovery is my new discover of life
Letting nothing hold you back
