Hi
In many of my stories I share and I talk about the shy me as a kid until I was about 14 years old I started to find my voice through starting a website to share my story.
Today I am speaking up telling my story! that's the center of my heart and passion
Today I must say writing helps me escape tough days. Everyone has those moments in life right?
Growing up my mom especially told me and my sister little girls are not supposed to be loud in order to be seen
But later on in my case that message change my mom told me if I don't talk or ask the teachers questions they will not know what you are capable of
that's true!
It simply takes someone taking a chair and having a chat with me.
When I did started writing and speaking up I still stayed silent about a lot.. Growing up you go through these phases that you stay silent about because you fear judgement.. you fear what will someone say or think about you..
yes that's me I share my story but yes I fear sharing somethings because the perception of others or naturally society
My struggle with accepting my own differences as I became a teenager is barely shared. I had deal emotional break downs it was draining writing helped but my parents just never understood and said never say why me..
Moments I wanted to give up and settle for less instead of high school- trade school-
When I got to high school I had tough days but I pushed through because of a great mentor my paraprofessional.
I respond to a lot emotionally because silent, seeing me happy, smiling and all great things keeps peace within my family
still when tears fall I AM judged
when i share my thoughts/feels i am judged so I just end up crashing as i explain myself
when i respond to different feelings using emotions I am told to grow up!
responding to with anger does not make overcoming my emotions any better
silence
shy
is the reason I struggle with self doubt and socializing because I am so often judge
As an young women with a disability, facing double adversity
There is a lot that can block me but I am being as awesome as I can.
As an adult I am going through things because yes I am just like everyone else and want to live life too.
I am silent for many reasons
I keep a lot inside
I had made the step after graduating high school to start going to see a therapist because I knew I was going to college was going to because knew everyday I will not have someone to share my struggles with each day like I did before.
Trust is hard to find
If my parents knew I was going to see a therapist their perception will be something different then where I am thinking
It's so hard to follow my heart staying silent sometimes
